I love the rain. Its pouring outside right now. The rain symbolizes multiple things for me. #1: It's God's way of making sure things keep growing and are nurtured. #2 : It washes away all the crud and mess. I could apply both these things to my life. God is allowing me to grow in multiple ways....in my christian life, in my career, and in my personal life. He is also washing away the crud.....my pain, my insecurities, and my inability to trust. It is not easy! Let me begin by saying that. But, I will NOT give up. I have God on my side and he will not allow anything in my life without equipping me to go through it.
It is funny the things we think of when we are going through difficult times. I often tell my friends how much I miss my maternal grandparents who are deceased. My Grandfather passed when I was 11. He was such a wonderful person. I would have loved to spend time with him during my adult life. He was wise and I know that I had much to learn from him. If only I had the ability to talk to him, I may not have made some of the decisions I had. I am thankful however, for the time I had with both of them. The lessons I learned were indeed valuable. They had a beautiful, long marriage. One of devotion and commitment. One where God was the head. I have longed for such a marriage. This has escaped me once again. But I will not look upon it as a failure for I did what I could. I did my part. As I am consistently reminded, it takes two.
As I venture on this new chapter of my life, God is with me. He will guide me for there is no other who can. "When you have nothing else, you quickly find out that God is all you need"! I am at peace.
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